that being my destination.

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10:30 PM

was just thinking.

if only we had that same zest for studying as we did in other stuff. i mean, we spend so much time studying for exams cos they're like 'so important' and 'determine the rest of their lives'. but from the christian perspective, it's not really true. why then do we hibernate for hours with our books when exams draw near, but spend a few minutes chionging sunday school homework sunday morning. it just doesnt seem right.

why is it that when school exams come, it becomes almost top priority. but everyday is an exam. and. why dont we specially set aside time to prepare, to pray and do qt. why is it that it's always the first thing we postpone, shorten, sometimes even forget. if only we had the same heart as we did for studying.

then we'd spend hours alone with God each day. wow. that'd be really cool.

thinking of all this i didnt manage to do much during tuition just now. but oh well. :)

&the joy.

8:55 PM

wow it's been a long eventful weekend. :) started thursday night with zurich ballet. whoa they are really good. and i like the cellist. he was coooool. :) friday and saturday were really good relationship building days, well in my opinion they were. and also a mess of pw and planning for the youth stayover.

sunday was just fun watching all of them smile and laugh and play together. from little things like bathing to food, i'm so glad i've been privelleged to see the people within the people. sat on the roof for a longlong time. and God really is so awesome. to think of the vastness of the sky, compared to his love for me. to think of the bright stars that are so so far away. the beauty of the sunrise. really, our God is and awesome God.

though now i'm really sleep deprived and pia-ing pw, i really thank God for the chance to be able to serve my fellow brothers in christ and to be able to just marvel at his wonders. :)

&the joy.

7:48 PM

LOVE <3

&the joy.

9:56 PM

at the same time, there can be so much to give thanks and rejoice for, and so much to break down and cry for.

but His ways are above ours. and i guess. we just have to trust and obey. though we will never fully comprehend, the slight bit that i do understand is so so great i cant imagine how wonderful God truly is.

though sometimes we'd wish for someone by our side, someone to talk to, someone to hold, and we think no one's there. He's there. always there. isnt that wonderful? to know that he will never leave or forsake, and there's no need to talk to him over msn or on the phone, cos he's always there with you? :) and that's just a teeny weeny glimpse of his glory.

open house was fun. silly cowboys, cowgirls and cacti. i couldnt hear a word shannon was saying during the opening skit but ohwell at least he looked like he was having fun. :) and see ann tricked me i didnt get to watch him perform. thanks jonathan and kenneth for supporting dance! hahaha i heard my name. i think. :) yay. vj <3.

lalala everythings so exciting. just the prospects of the future alone. and knowing that God's plan will fall into place. hahaha yay! it doesnt matter which uni i end up in, or what job i hold. for i know who holds the future, and i know who holds my hand. :)

thank you Lord for making me a daughter of the most high.

&the joy.

10:18 PM

thank you so so much Lord. there's just so much to give thanks for.

wah i havent done a listy thing in quite a while. i shall do one. :)
kat: aaahhh yay thank you Lord for helping her find focus and her desire for heart. <3 thank you for a lovely friend.
janice: for her exponential growth and ever increasing desire to serve and love you. Lord thank you for showing me that you work in your glorious ways and that now it's time to pass it on to this new pair of hands.
joshua: for his heart of service and willingness to learn, for his love of what he does and the effort he puts into everything he does. all for you Lord.
matt: he's learning, growing. seeing things in new perspectives. thank you for his desire to worship. to serve.
nick: he's learnt to appreciate more, to complain less. and he's growing up so so well. :) dont worry kat, he's growing. God makes all things beautiful in His time.
mark: wow. haha God is truly amazing. thank you Lord for heart, for his searching. help him to find the answers Lord to learn what you have in store for him. thank you so so much for showing us how sovereign you are.
benjamin: thank you for his fire! it's amazing. his new found enthusiasm, the way he now can put his thoughts and desires into words and actions. all for you Lord. thank you.
shannon: haha thank you Lord for 18 years. and a wonderful young man of yours. thank you for giving him the heart for you and the desire to give back. thank you so so much.
joel chia: thank you for his seeking. and that we know that you always have the answers.
andy: for increasing clarity, for desire to find you. please Lord show him your ways. for they are above any of man's.
joel lee: thank you Lord for teaching him, bit by bit. help him understand, open up. give him courage to share his life with us. for we are one in you.
harry: for his enthusiasm. i pray you'll grant us opportunity to grow closer as a class before his enlistment, that he'll know that we'll always be here for him, praying for him.
and for the rest: thank you for jan's learning attitude, for charis' humility, for the laughter yuanshuai brings, for jessica's new found enthusiam, and even for the 5 young boys whom you are grooming into young men. :) thank you so much for each and everyone of these people. and for showing us that we mean so much to you.

and thank you for this new chapter. it's the thrill of anticipation. exploring the new grounds past the door that just opened. learning to leave some stuff behind. but always remembering the lessons learnt.

there's just so much to be thankful for. and knowing that God will never fail us, we can take a step of faith, learning from past mistakes and being moulded and refined into the person we are to become. wow.

&the joy.