that being my destination.

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9:20 PM

i havent been in touch with the outside world, in like, two whole weeks.

today after i came home from the musicfest thing i realised that i havent worn anything other than school clothing except on sunday in a long long time. but looking back at the past 2 weeks, in more ways than one, they were fruitful. :)

staying back for cheerleading everyday was, though tiring and stressful, fun. the hours of interaction and work, especially on the part of mel, cheryl, jessie, hannah and the cheerleaders, gave us so much time for building friendships. if not for cheerleading, i wouldnt have met wonderful ppl like mel yuen, taariq, etc. thank you Lord for cheerleading.

though the music was kinda really faulty and all, cheerleading was on the whole, great. :) they did so well coming up with spontaneous things to do to keep the school high. and we still did win overall! GO AQUILA! it's really the Lord's grace that brought us through. though almost everything bad that could happen happened, the day still ended on a good note. :)

house noms, cheerleaders, house seniors, aquilians, the day's yours. :) thanks for being part of such a lovely experience. i love you all! <3

&the joy.

11:35 PM

yay! cheer prac today went really well. i think by now everyone has had a feel of doing stunts and things are starting to take shape. thanks to hannah, jessie and cheryl, the grease part is done and so now we've only got the stunts and pompom parts left! haha it was great to see the girls to enthusiastic to learn the pompom parts from fanny. i think we'll get everyone to contribute to that part so that everyone would have a sense of ownership to this whole thing. :)

as much as shannon and bernard joke around, it's wonderful to see that they actually do care and do have that gentlemanly side to them. :) i shall not bully them. haha. love you cheerleaders!

musicfest is tmr! not sure how we're going to do it. but we shall. :) i'm so glad i'm in vj. if i werent, i wouldnt have met so many wonderful ppl. God really does know how to plan our lives well doesnt he. yay. i'm so glad to be able to rely on him.

dance went well today too. i'm loving dance more and more now. :) it's not just the beauty of the art, or the thrill of performing that entices me. it's the feeling of dancing when everything blends together perfectly, it's all just like a dream.

it's the perfect mix of flavours.

&the joy.

10:45 PM

it's in times of broken-ness that you really see God appear, and you see how dependent we need to be on him. as cheryl said, if not for the fact that i have God in my life, i'd probably have committed suicide already. :) it's great to know that i have friends to pray with whenever i'm feeling down.

haha today we had practice in our *ahem practice costume outfit thingys. i can just imagine yirui's and shannon's eyes lighting up. but it was IN THE PT. hahahah too bad for you guys. it was really weird at first and everyone was too self conscious to dance properly. so, in a way, it was good that we practiced like that cos if we didnt it would have been ultra weird on our performance day. haha.

yesterday was house meeting and we sang our song. unfortunately i think most ppl didnt get it. oh well. at least we were zi high. ooh, i dont want elections to come. the 8 is going to be cut down to 4 and it's so sad. i cant imagine. :( okay let's not think about it anymore.

tmr's the latst day of the week. yay.

&the joy.

8:48 PM

God is good all the time, and all the time, God is good!

it's so amazing the ways in which he works. it's so good to know that i need not worry about anything because my father is looking after me and preventing anything that is too hard for me to handle to flatten me. :) with my life in His hands, i've nothing to worry about!

&the joy.

6:21 PM

ooosh. holidays are over. it's been almost worse than normal school days. cos i didnt have any time to study at all. and i dont want to fail chem. :(

hahah thanks for the encouragement and concern cheryl, kat and sherlyn. i'm still surviving, and all ready for everything to start again tmr. :)

just something from auntie mohkeng's email that i thought was thought provoking.

"No matter what my daily chores might be
To earn my livelihood, still may I see
My job, the real position that I hold
Is bringing others to the Master's fold."

it's wonderful to have such caring friends. and to know that they'll be there to back me up whenever i need it. :)

i'll live through this week. as cheryl said, the joy of the Lord shall be my strength! <3

&the joy.

11:09 PM

yay. :)

orientation today wasnt too bad. though we didnt exactly succeed in spoofing our second intakers, they seem like a nice enough bunch. we're a full class of 26 still, with equal sex ratio and all, almost the same as before. just minus the friendships we've built over the past 2 months. junkai's really sad he has to stay in ac. argh i wish he could stay. it's just different without vicki, cheryl, junkai they all. :(

though aquila had really few ppl today, and despite s44 being unenthu, we still managed to cheer a lot. a lot. hahahaha. the day started off on a bad note, with all the complaining and stuff, but i'm so glad we managed to end it off well. :) the captain's ball match we won really lifted up our spirits and though we didnt manage to win the semis, i think the first game was good enough to make us satisfied.

sort of 'bonded' in the treehouses after that. oops. haha we kinda missed the rest of orientation cos we were having ct bonding. yay i love my class. aaron seems like another typical vs guy, who'd probably bring more laughter to the class, and xinmin is a dancer! :) and of course the usual ppl. i'm so grateful for such a wonderful class, thank you Lord!

went out for dinner with phoebe, jinghan, meiyi, daryl and jiawei. though i hardly knew the last 2, it was great to be able to eat with brothers-in-Christ! like i kept saying, it's nothing like what i'd ever done in sc. saying grace together, eating from a communal plate, it really felt like we were family! :)

we had a safe worship prac today! no accidents, and it was really cool to jam with them musically talented people. :) all in all, today was a great day with all the love and warmth of family. ohana means family, and family means no one gets left behind. :)

<3 love:
s44 ogls! huiting, shelia, fanny :)
trident!
s44! batman gang and all :)
dancers
wonderful vj people
churchies! :)
sc kimgeks =) hahaha.

love to love. <3

&the joy.

8:30 AM

2 stark examples of how frail life is this week.

first it was the girl from school that collasped while running her 2.4. i was just walking out of lt1 after math lect when the ambulance came into the school. there were pe teachers running about all over and many students were moving out of the canteen to the track area. then i heard that someone had collasped on the track. well i guess most people didnt think that it was too serious, i mean, people faint all the time, and we all expected her to regain consciousness again soon. but she didnt. and it was so scary, hearing stories of how she was foaming at the mouth, and her eyeballs were rolling up and stuff like that.

then, on thurs i went to church for music prac. uncle peter and debbie were sending kat and i home and we left church the last. in the car, we were talking about the girl who collasped. then, we saw an overturned motorcycle and someone lying on the ground. and we realised that it was desmond. i think that it was an image i wouldnt forget for a long time. he was bleeding quite badly i think, i didnt dare to go near lest i get in the way. but he's okay now.

but that incident left me thinking. just a few moments ago, he was playing with little eli, letting eli hit his helmet, and laughing at eli cos it was eli's hand that was painful and not his head. then a few moments later, he was lying curled up on the ground, helmet having flown off elsewhere. during music prac, we were singing God is good all the time. and i remember desmond saying, hmmm really meh? well i guess we all found out the answer to that. he managed to escape death with only cuts, not even any broken bones.

2 near-death incidents, one resulting in death, and the other not. really shows us the frailty of life. we must treasure each moment, cos it may be our last. i remember talking to the dancers, and someone said, poor girl, she spent the last days of her life mugging for cts. and she didnt even get to say her goodbyes.

so i want to live a life without regret.

&the joy.