that being my destination.

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7:26 PM

it's been quite some time since i last posted. life's normal i guess. normally hectic. lotsa things going on, a lot of rushing for time. haha.

we ran 3.6km today. oh wow. i've never run so long a distance before in my life. :) tmr's our only rest day. yay. not that dancing everyday isnt fun, it's just quite tiring.

aahh i have nothing much to blog about. so that's that. :)

&the joy.

10:30 PM

it's been a whir today. yay thankyou all you wonderful ppl who gave me all the nice stuff. and shermo! yay i got your rose :) how lovely. haha see ann was my secret valentine. hahahahaha and when he bought the paper bag i was there and was telling him how ugly it was compared to the other choices and all and he still, he still bought the teddybear one. oh well. haha the present's really sweet. and the person i picked was kenneth, yay i gave him some very random funny stuff. i like shannon's box. oh man i'm feeling so random. my mortal dunhao gave me a wand, which everyone was so amused with, including mr teo. he kept waving it at ppl during our ct session. yay.

had full dress rehearsal for cny concert. jieru's super pro. :) yay. i think wushu is cool man. it's soft yet strong at the same time. if only i could have such energy in my movements. after that i had my house comm interview. which was traumatising. argh i hope i get in. it's so hard to come up with things that will set you apart from the rest under those conditions! oh well, feeling completely traumatised i went back for dance and ended up doing conditioning. lots and lots of crunches. ouch. but we're going to get nice stomachs yay. then the rest went running but the few of us who didnt have school attire had to stay at the pt. weian made us play tag. which was so tiring. supposed to train our stamina or something like that.

went to meet mummy and kathy after that for cny shopping. walked down orchard road in my school u, looking completely shacked and carrying my heavy bags with my nice pink rose and semi-deflated balloon (thanks, jonathan!) i like my balloon. anyways, many many couples were there and i saw many many bouquets of flowers. and there were so many ppl lining orchard trying to sell flowers and toys and all that kinda things.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!! <3

yeah. like jan said, it's a day to celebrate love, like the deep love that the pf have cultivated. between us and with God. yay it's amazing love. haha reminds me of my india trip reflection thingy. but love truly is amazing when God comes into the picture. it becomes selfless, true, pure, unblemished love. yep that's the kind of love i want. :) so for now, i'm awaiting that day, but happy as i am now!

what a day. fun, lotsa chocolates and hugs, and trauma. aaahhh.

kaboom.

&the joy.

10:38 PM

it's really like the chengyu bu4 chi3 xia4 wen4. it's amazing how much you can learn off the examples of others, and not being ashamed to learn from others supposedly 'below' you really allows you to learn so so much more. yay. i'll blog about 3 amazing kiddos.

first. charissa. you've grown and matured so much in the past 2 years. watching you emerge from your chrysalis, it's wow, well i'm speechless. God's really showered his grace upon you, helping you to see and understand so many things as such a young age. you've inspired me to keep striving on in my walk. i'm sure many other lives have been touched by yours as well.

janjan! i love the way you're always so full of energy and zest in serving Chirst. looking upon your example when i'm feeling tired spurs me on. :) yepyep you've been shining so brightly, so clearly as a light. keep pressing on, we'll all walk down this journey of life together!

janice. i'd never thought that you'd be so on fire so young, but it's awe-inspiring. you've grown a lot a lot in the past year. i'm so looking forward to you serving as you grow older, cos i think you'd do an absolutely amazing job!

it's been my privellege to go on the trip with the 3 of you darlings last year, i've learnt so much from being with you. i feel so honoured when you share with me your lives, and i'm so glad to be a part of it. we're all soldiers of the cross, so let's join our hands, and united we shall walk on! yay i'm so grateful to have so many like-minded ppl around me in my life. thank you Lord.

valentine's is 2 days away. guess who's my love? <3

:)

&the joy.

9:51 PM

it's been a day full of hugs, laughs, tears, friends, memories, smses and phone calls.

met jaz and the some of the ac and nj ppl at island creamery this morning. first whoosh of nostalgia. we used to have ice cream there so often, even before it became a shop on its own. :) then went to school and whoosh again! i went around hugging pillars, oh i miss the place so so much. the studios, the gardens, the audi, classrooms, canteen, everything. saw so many familiar faces, even the primary girls remember us :) walked around, the place is still so much like home. then went to the khoo audi for the release of results.

miss heng was there, mr tang was there, all the people that mattered were there. after a long briefing on jae, they finally started telling us about the statistics and all that. the tension was really apparent it was so so scary. haha we were already crying before it even began. then they showed us that geog and lit got 91% a1s which is so cool and we cried even more. then we saw that chinese was actually above national average and we cried again. then they announced minkyeong as the top student, and the other 4 overall 9a1 ppl, yada yada. i was totally crying my eyes out in there.

going outside, mr tang handed us our result slips. he was so proud. i'm so glad to have been his student. only i feel a bit sad for mrs choo. i think i kinda disappointed her. oops. but i'm happy with my results. it's really by God's grace.

nearing o level period i was still super involved with the church youth and all the other stuff and a lot of my time and energy was put into that. of course i still did study and thanks so much jaz for studying with me almost everyday, congrats on your good results :) . it's really not by my effort, i couldnt have done any of it alone. but by the strength and stamina He gave me to keep going each day, and helping me balance my studies and all the other whatnots, i did it. :)

as grace put it, well, before we got our results, the battle's already over. though a lot of it i remember so clearly, i'm grateful it's over and that i've ended that chapter of my life on a good note. now i can truly say that 2006 was the bestest most fruitful year. God keeps blessing me with all these wonderful things again and again. the psle, the dsa, and now the o's. i'm so blessed and i'm proud to say that my life is His, and for his glory alone. :)

yay.yay.yay.

to those who didnt meet their expectations, it's okay, life still goes on. jer 29:11. it's not the end of your life. it's just a stepping stone to success. it makes you stronger, more resilient. it's training. and i still love you. <3 hil i hope you're alright.

&the joy.

10:27 PM

i'm sorry to everyone i've been short tempered to lately. or those that i've neglected. my rubberband has been stretched past its limit and luckily, it hasnt snapped yet. but i've yet to adjust to a more elastic one. :) haha i'm blabbering nonsense now. i'm really too stressed man.

thanks s44 for all the laughter i get each day. haha all the nonsense about batman, the who me?, everything. if not for all that i would probably be dying now, drowning in the mess of things.

i'm so excited about friday! not so much for the results but more for the fact that i'll finally have time to meet up with my sc friends! sher, jaz, jia, it seems like eons ago since we last met. aaahh! haha it'll be an eventful day i think.

we were just talking about what the worst that could happen would be. and our expectations and stuff like that. i guess i've always had really high expectations for myself in every aspect. but after being in vj for all this while i've come to realise that there's much more than that. i've the youth to care for, to organise for :) (haha yes, kat) so what if i get 9a1s, qualify for rj/hc, get some top student thingo. as if, but so what? what's the diff between a school in the top 5 and jj or pj? (sorry, that's not meant to be insulting) i think that if i were in jj or pj there would be so much more care and less pressure to perform. maybe it'd be better. i mean, it's going to be really hard to excel in vj, i'll probably just end up being some small fish. :) okay, as if i can change school. i'm happy in vj, with my wonderful class and friends there. yay.

i'm so so sorry andy, matt, joel, all the rest that i've sorta ignored or not talked to properly over the past few days. i really want to listen and help but i'm to my neck in work and other stuff. and i need to calm myself down first. sorry dearies!

dance is so different. but i'm glad that there's still elements of dance that i'm familar with. lorr, cheryl, ruth, minli. and all the new friends, they rock too. :) yay.

&the joy.

9:16 PM

i cant stand the suspense any longer. why cant they quickly just give us back the results. haha. i'm scared. that i wont live up to my high expectations. but oh well. i keep thinking of how i'll do, i'd rather know now.

school is super tiring. but all the fun parts make up for it. yay i cant wait to go cycling. i just wish i had more time each day so that i could have more time to spend with my class. as it is now, we're mostly super busy with our cca committments as well.

i need to learn how to feel the music when doing hip hop. i cant seem to grasp that feeling that cheryl keeps talking about. i'm too trained, too restricted. argh. musicfest'll be fun though. i hope. :)

&the joy.