that being my destination.

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4:52 PM

day one. only 17 more to go. it'll be over quick. like an antbite.

we had such a fruitful sunday yestd. yay. :)

and the mission trip stuff is starting to get quite exciting. we had a nice concert on sat. ooh the church was filled with beautiful music. and there are now these yummy and nice smelling oils for cooking and salads and stuffs. see http://2fish.wordpress.com it's nice looking. i'm thinking col did it. :) designer-ish and all.

oh wow i hope we can really get a youth cell going. many cells make tissue. many tissues make organs. many organs make systems. many systems + a heart,mind,and soul make a human being. :) i hope that's right. have to check my bio notes. oh, bittersweet times during o's. i wanna slack today away. just that my head's throbbing. :(

&the joy.

11:34 PM

YAY! I DANCED TODAY!

i'm going to ache tmr, but yay! i danced!

i'm HIGH and filled with adrenaline now.

i realise that my posts nowadays are either whiny, because of the leaving sc thing, or short and spastic, cos all i do nowadays is sit around doing nothing. or study of course. which by the way i'm sick of macs now. but i've still so much to revise. a few days more. i should have a countdown. :) today's the 26th, oct has 31 days. 31-26=5. 5+16=21. 21 days! yay only 3 weeks more.

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4:37 PM

haha i'm probably the only one who's slacking my day away a few days before o's. :) well and shong that is. yay. i'm going for dance later!! yay.

oh yeah and if anyone wants to go for the music concert this sat, check out the missions blog here and tell me if you'd like to come. :)

physics prac was so so hard. :( how can they produce such a hard paper? i'm going for ms heng's farewell and romans trail tmr! it seems that i'm going back to my usual schedule again, just that o's arent over yet. oops. maybe i'm too anxious. :)

&the joy.

10:11 PM

yay we had a mini meeting on sunday and there's so much to look forward to after o's. :)

&the joy.

12:00 PM

one more week till it ends.

yay.

i cant wait. i wanna go play. :)

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2:17 PM

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2:06 PM

we graduated yesterday. :)

we screamed, cried, sang, cheered, laughed, ate, and took lots of photos. it's at times like this that we all sing the school song together with such passion, and do the school cheer with such enthusiasm. and li-shan's a wonderful head prefect. her speech was so... lovely. thought-provoking. apt. and though it may seem unfair that she got to be head prefect twice whilst in scgs, i say, go li-shan! haha. go become charmaine's successor as chairperson of the hc sc!

our years end here.

mrtang posted a msg on the class calendar with my name as the title in red and in caps: PLEASE HAND UP YOUR REPORT BOOK ASAP!!! oops. haha.

sorry mr tang!

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10:22 PM

bio prac stung my eyes. the quarantine was 4 hours long. well at least we had a nice discussion, fuz, hil, shong and i. :)

i've been bitten by the study bug.

blogger doesnt want to let me put the photos here. i shall see if shutterfly can.

i'm graduating tmr!

&the joy.

7:10 PM

thanks jaz for studying with me today. :)

came back from the retreat thingy in m'sia yestd. my family went in later so we werent with the rest for lunch. apparently they got lost so they ate at some hawker centre somewhere. we ate at an italian restaurant. :) yay it was so yummy. but after that i was feeling very tired and stressed about bio and not in a shopping mood. so we walked about, met the rest of them, walked about somemore. and we decided to go back to the resort place first. kathy went swimming with the other little kids and i studied my bio. yay. after that i felt a lot better. something's wrong with me. suddenly studying makes me feel good. eek.

then we went out for dinner in search of aunty jenny's peking restaurant. after a long time, we finally found the restaurant, and haha they were having a wedding dinner there. jo-ann, joel, kathy and i were in the backseat so we at least had ppl to talk to. :) at the place where we finally managed to get dinner, they had this huge screen showing a soccer match. and joel and jo-ann were delighted. our food took 45min to come. but at least there was soccer to watch.

i found how to apply physics. :) in carrom. it's so funny playing with the expert aunties and uncles. and jan and i dont have enough strength to get the thing to reflect back. haha. it hurts your nails.

we had a mini service the next day in room 309. :) 307+2. i think it was really really good cos the adults shared with us so so much. and i never did realise how much grace God has showered on us. in terms of medical conditions, uncle lum sung's stroke, auntie siewkheng's face thing, mum's breast cancer, auntie jenny's throat thing. wow. it's a lot. and uncle buck chye shared so much it really touched me to see how much he loves his family. he said something that i wont forget. something like, we are but servants of God, every day that we live is for him, and not for ourselves. and i was thinking, wow, our God really is great, to let us enjoy our lives here on earth so much even though it's not our lives to live.

thank you Lord for such an enlightening experience.

and the next day for lunch we got to eat auntie jenny's pork ribs at the peking restaurant. and they're actually yummy. :)

&the joy.

7:46 PM

6faith '02. :)

me, peixuan, kenny, lester, daniel, timothy, derrick, darren, zhikai :)

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5:50 PM

yay. just back from the frenzy of open houses. i can just imagine what tmr will be like for those going. unfortunately for me, i dont have the wonderful privellege of going around singapore visiting open houses cos i'll be going to malaysia. but it'll be fun. i hope.

oh wow i didnt know i knew so many ppl. i keep meeting ppl. and not recognise them. but i recognised derrick! yay. hahah i was very excited. after not knowing who ppl who said hi to me were, i finally managed to recognise someone! :) and i think rj's more attractive than hc. although hc's goody bag's nicer.

and today was the last day of school. :( no more sitting next to cheryl, mrteh "cheryl and audrey please pay attention", no more mrs lim's "felicia are you listening?", no more of mrtang's "coiled coils", argh. my classroom's very nice. i shall post the photos next time. ilovescgs.

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5:00 PM

all this autograph book writing is making me nostalgic. and whenever i want to write something to someone, i get a mental block and forget what i wanted to write. argh.

today was the 3rd last day of school. friday'll be my last proper school day in sc. i can still so vividly remember the first day, coming into totally unfamiliar surroundings. and there were so many girls and no guys at all. it was really different. getting lost trying to find room 100, signing up for dance auditions, going through many rounds and finally getting into what i chose sc for.

sc's done so much for me. i've always been talkative :) but only after being in sc for these years do i dare stand up for my opinion, and let my voice be heard. somehow the air there makes us more vocal ppl. and i've grown stronger through adversity, physically and emotionally. though there are times i wish not to remember, overall it's been a wonderful journey in sc. it's in sc where i truly nutured my love of dance. it's in sc where i learnt how to love. it's in sc where i grew up, from a blur little sec one girl, to what i am today. not that i'm much taller la. of course i've learnt other things like how to present myself better and all that kinda kimgek stuff.

i'll miss
-the minmin moments
-hilary's tissue troubles
-fuzzeh's naps
-cheryl's lame jokes
-grace's lit-ness
-ama's ahem dance style
-ying's autistic and yet sweetness
-dawn's loudness
-maria's rolling her eyes at c---
-mini's super studiousness
-jiayun's never ceasing appetite
-charmaine's craze over tv
-megan's imitations
-shermin's sexy voice :)
-jiayu's ambitions
-jaz's rationality
-val's diet plans
-lez's complaining of the sec 3s
-zoe's yummy food
and the list goes on...

&the joy.

5:00 PM

all this studying is really making me so superficial. i no longer sit and reflect, and be amazed at how God works in my life in in other's. there always seems to be a lack of time. i remember telling kat that we can have time as long as we make time. it's up to us essentially. then why am i letting this whole must-get-good-grades thing become my life? no. i shouldnt be hypocritical. that's why i've decided to blog instead of bury my head in the books.

psle ended today. those kids are probably very happy now. but next year, they'll have eoys to worry about, then streaming, then o's, promos, a's, it never ends. that what point is there in living? like what the ecclesiasties author says, we might as well not have been born, since life only results in death, and what we do in life doesnt matter. we all die anyways. but i do, I DO have something more. i can look beyond this world, and set my sights on that which is to come.

then my life becomes full of meaning. i can use my life to be a light to man. and i can glorify God in my studies, and whilst studying. not making my studies my entire life, but not entirely neglecting it either.

i've grown so much this year. looking back on this year, it's really been very fruitful, more than i ever expected it to be. well that's probably cos i'm human, but what controls our lives is immortal. i mean, it's so good to know that He's in charge. and He has the power to do anything. in His hands we are safe, and need not fear anything. whether it be failing exams, losing a close friend, or even our own lives.

this year's been quite an experience. the whole blur of events, dramafest, concert, my heart aches for those times. i miss them. but we need to learn to move on. those are memories i'll never forget. now i'm to create new memories, for myself and for others. i want to touch lives. is that too much to ask? i hope not. now everyone's mugging. please please dont suffer mental breakdowns please. i've seen so many of you looking like you're going to break any moment. there's so much more to life than just studying.

and my life is so purposeful. :) thank you Lord.

i choose to be holy, set apart for you Lord

&the joy.

3:40 PM

yay! i'm online again. only to write out a thankyou email to the wonderful ppl who came by to teach us yestd and to get all the stuff down from asknlearn. if you ask me, i'd rather the teacher's print all the stuff for us. my printer isnt even working properly. and the stuff about saving paper, if i print it myself, i can only print on one side, but when they do it in school, it's double sided. argh.

the o's seem so near and yet so far. but i cant wait for the mission trip! there's alot of exciting things that i can do after the o's. and i'll be carefree like kat! haha like real. i always find trouble for myself to get into. i'll be able to learn keyboards properly with ben! that'll be really fun. yay.

but for now, it's the final lap already, so it's chiong to the finish! :) i'm going away this weekend.

&the joy.

7:39 PM

yay! today was productive. well abit. :)

thankyou zoe for the yummy yummy cookies! i'm so grateful to have such wonderful friends. :) the encouragement i get from you guys each day, it really helps me to press on. i wanna go for ballet tmr. heard that they're going to send in the exam forms already. oh no. i want to do it too. i have to go speak to elaine or mr ferrer. :(

happy birthday shan! seventeen years already. wow. i remember how i used to think of you as that smart looking friend of joel's. mainly due to the specs. :) God's really given you so much talent.

my week's been pretty much boring. cos all i do is go to school, study, sit around. and the classroom is now a crazy place. if you're not feeling super stressed with all the already-so-smart ppl around you studying like mad, you're totally slacking talking about utter rubbish. like rosy cheeks and tempura.

cheryl brought her yummy pudding thing today. but the silly girl froze it so some of it was ice. nvm. next mon she'll bring it again. and ama'll bring fruits and cream. and i'll bring sausages. and fuz and ying will all bring yummy food! then we'll have a good start to our day, and our study time'll be optimized! hopefully. yay i love sc.

i still dont know so much of the syllabus. it's a wonder how i passed my prelims. oh well. it's back to study now.

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4:45 PM

not dancing makes me lethargic. :(

the carwash raised manymany money! (in the words of the acjc guy that came to sc) :) yay. okay i just updated the missionsblog on that so i shant do it again. if not i'll become monotonous. boring..

finalised all my results for prelims today. okay lah, it wasnt that bad. except that my mum saw and she was like 'like that can get into vj anot? if you didnt have dsa?' then i counted, and since my cca can only minus me one point, i was shocked to realise that i wouldnt have gotten in. oh dear. my results must suck terribly. there's still moderation though. i hope.

if only i knew the diff btwn a gene and an allele, or how to differenciate ln, or if i had properly studied geog, which i still dont konw how to, or if i drew the bean abit bigger, or if i did prose instead of poem, and the self-devt essay instead of the education one. :( it's too late for regrets now. i just need to study harder.

which reminded me of one of our sunday school lessons. it was on not dwelling on the past. i remember joel had a lot to say on that. how we can learn from history, but we shouldnt live then, but instead, pick ourselves up and move on. it was from our ecclesiaties study. i shall go and find out where exactly.

the handphone is a wonderful invention. it beats any dictionary or concordance. yestd i msged grace and asked where the verse that said blahblahblah was, and in less than i minute, i got a reply with the ref. jer 29:11. :) yay. and i didnt need to even flip through a concordance. haha.

doing to jumpin' east of java to jingle bells is stupendously funny.

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