that being my destination.

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7:46 PM

weekends are forever super-packed.

yestd went for parade and yay. i think the drills are looking up. :) then off to buts! which way rocked. yeah. sc dancers! haha. we were eating pizza and potato chips whilst others around us were drinking champagne and wine, eating cheese and bread, salads and even ICE CREAM!! next time we'll have more class. :) the performance was nice. i like the contemp pieces. like dying swan! sooo good. yaling's item was pretty cool too.

went for joel's baptism today. it's another efc! so exciting. :) the ppl there are so effectively billingual. i wish i could be like that too. it's amazing. whoa. congrats joel!

then he followed us back to church where we just sat around and talked and watched harry and matt beat each other up :). gosh joel. you are talented kay. i dont understand why you music ppl always deny your talents. and i think you're probably really smart too. yay.

sorry stef. i told you the wrong thing so you had to walk back from kap. oh well. it's good excercise. :)

&the joy.

12:00 PM

elearning day :)

luckily we have 2 double periods today. so we only have 4 subjects. but then i think some teachers dont know that we only need to do the work for the subjects on the timetable. oh well. but i'm done with most of it except the bio one. i left my bio fys under my desk in school. :(

the benefit of elearning is that you can discuss with your friends and talk while doing work, unlike in school. and typing is less painful than writing. :) i think elearning day is good cos i can wake up later and be in the comfort of my own home. :)

yay. tmr there's hsien fa's.

&the joy.

10:23 PM

loong day at school today. during rap, which became physics, everyone was agreeing with mr tang all the way. it was very funny watching cheryl nod, nod... :) i was on the verge of dying too. somehow halfway through i became alive again. :) yay.

tmr's e learning day, so i dont need to go to school. :)

today i shall talk about ben. :) for those of you who know him, he's really changed so much, it's unbelivable. not just on the outside, but inside as well. he used to be a quiet guy, who would take whatever critisism people placed on him, not saying anything in return. now, well, now he's really come to know how to treasure only what is eternal and not anything else. you never cease to amaze me :) standing up for others, openly displaying brotherly love for your neighbours, that's what it should be all about. go ben!

i'm so glad the fire is spreading, slowly but steadily.

Spirit touch your church
stir the hearts of men
revive us Lord
with your passion once again

&the joy.

9:49 PM

we had dance today. so so exciting!! too bad it wasnt HF's. cant wait for friday!! yay.

don neo's class was okay i guess. he did diff excercises for us. 2 turn ppl he said. so malu. i did a grande jete instead of an assemble in the grande allegro. :) it really feels good to dance again. my toes are still feeling bruised from sunday. i wonder why.

i'm going to miss the dancers. well, i guess i have to learn to move on. to move toward my final goal. :)

i'm set apart a stranger in this world
no more at home at peace with the ways of this world
your spirit keeps me going in this race
till i meet you in a better place
until then i really need your grace.

&the joy.

9:48 PM

last night, concerto allegro was beautiful. even though there was no cool lighting, smoke, or stage effects. it's about so much more. the energy, the way everyone moved as one. it really was SUPERB. way to go, dancers. yueyun was crying by the end of it, and mind you, it's not a really long piece. it's indescribable. the whole audience seemed to sense it. the way you danced your hearts out to us, all that sc dance has done for us. everyone reminicing concert days and wanting to relive that moment all over again. you'll always be beautiful. and you're first in our hearts. no matter how the results came out to be.

&the joy.

10:15 AM

ooh. it's been a really busy week. we had cl emphasis activities on tues and wed till 5. and dance on friday. and i got to eat ice cream!! :) yay. island creamery.

still missing concert. i think that this year's was the best ever in terms of the way it bonded all of us so. :) scdance. yesterday, we took part in the cstd asia pac competition. i did sylphides and some of them did concerto allegro. minyi and erika did their tap thing. haha. it was fun to watch. we warmed up on the balcony holding on to the wall and all standing in one straight line.

we're sylphs. and we're coming to get ya! :)

i wonder what will happen if i dont go for geog test. can i just do it tmr instead. bring it home to do or something.

saturday was an ultra packed day. oral> rehearsal> chicken+egg seminar> bb cares> church meeting. whoopdeedoo.

i need to start studying now i think.

&the joy.

7:04 PM

o level cl listening today. i listened to so much classical music. :) it's supposed to be good for you. the way mother's listen to mozart so that their babies will be geniuses. :) yay. haha. it wasnt that bad, yay i understood most of it. so chinese is OVER!! yay. till next year.

i'm going to fail tmr's geog test. yes. cos i have no knowledge whatsoever about the whole agriculture thing. and nothing can get into my head.

ee chen's birthday today. yay. happy sexaye seventeen. :)

i'm so happy that we have class on friday. yay. didnt think that i would think like that before, but now i'm really excited about it. :) dance dance.

and i forgot that sat was our prelim orals. oops.

&the joy.

7:01 PM

sunday.

after church today we went for lunch. and did homework and studied and played music and stuff. i think charissa got hurt by the soccer ball. i shall therefore conclude that soccer is a dangerous sport. :)

kat was doing her math so i decided to help her to do the questions i could do with my limited sec sch add math knowledge. :) somehow i find math so much more exciting than geog. i'd rather be doing differenciation than learning about agricultural systems. haha.

we tried to put together some music but haha. i think we neeed more practice. and we need ben and shan.

dawn, jiayun and i went to watch the sac dance concert yesterday. um.. nothing to say. i think that nothing can ever compare with sc dance. all the more reason for me to miss it. and joel was telling me that the vj dancers just take a cd player then put it down in the canteen and start dancing. haha.

i miss it all. the costumes, the lights, the food, flowers, everything. especially the dancers. bleh.

&the joy.

6:28 PM

last night was such a blur. literally.

it's over. AHH!!! i still dont get it. my mind is in a whir, how can i feel so sad even though i havent really left yet? oh dear.

on the brighter side, at least we found out that the makeup is waterproof. :)

i WILL go back to sc next year. I WILL I WILL. too bad if vj is far away. i shall take 48 and go back to sc. so there.

&the joy.

9:22 AM

i cant believe the first night is gone. just like that.

the four years i spent in sc dance, it all boils down to this. this one night. dawn nailed her fouttes yesterday. i guess it's kinda her farewell gift to the school. a great performance. hope we can pull it off again tonight.

i've decided, i'm gonna miss sc dance. no matter how much pain it has caused me over the years. after all, as they say, what you love most is what will cause you the most pain. i think it's cos i treasure it so, that i really feel the pain of rejection and stuff.

so many wonderful memories. new zealand '04, concerts, and all the happy times we spent together. i love sc dance for what it is, despite all the *ahem bad stuff that happens as well. i'll miss doing the luigi jazz excercises, grande jete-ing across our huge studio, watching biru and minyi dancing :) , and performing for sc. oh. i'll miss that so much.

tonight's the night. we sec 4s are going to go out there and make the most of our swan song. yes we will.

&the joy.

2:51 PM

IT'S TODAY!!!

in about 5 hours time we will all be in kallang, dancing the night away on stage. wow.

it's all too soon. i cant leave yet.

oh the pics i took yesterday can be accessed here.

&the joy.

9:25 PM

CONCERT TMR!!!!

oh dear. i'm so unprepared. and tired. we ended so late today, and didnt even get to run through it with costumes. hopefully tmr it will be alright. i hope i'll be able to change from chinese to maksim on time. and i need to break into my shoes. they are still too hard.

i forgot to bring food today. so so terrible. no food makes me feel sad. i wont forget again. :)

preparing gifts for the dancers. argh. it's my last concert. cant believe it's so soon.

&the joy.

9:35 PM

YAY!! dress rehearsal tmr. it'll be sooo fun. i hope. yay. going to kallang is always fun.

went with jiayun to shop for gifts for the sec 4s. i got gifts for everyone. :) i need to get the names of the sec 1s though. concert is so soon! oh no! i dont want it to end. it marks the end of being a student part of scdance, and the beginning of mugging for o's. although i should've started already. pooh.

chem test on mon, geog on tues. really dont know how i'm going to fare. it seems that ever since sec 4 i haven't been able to study much. or even at all. yuck. it just cant get in.

hope vj calls again soon. God's really in charge of my life now. He's leading me every step of the way. i just need to learn to follow.

dramafest '06. champions. i'll never forget that moment.

&the joy.

3:37 PM

the june hols totally zapped all my energy. since i've been back in school, i've not seem to have recovered from all the tiredness. :(

went to hc today to sell tix. we were told that the jc reception would be better than the high school one. haha. in 5 hrs, dawn, ama, ying and i with rice's help sold 2 tix. yay. haha.

went to climb bukit timah hill with church+bb ppl yesterday. thanks for helping me so much. it was really quite scary jumping over and sliding down in the mud.

i shall post dramafest pics when i feel more like it. so glad that we did it. it think everyone will remember that day even after we leave sc. it was so surreal, we were no longer clique-ish, everyone was helping everyone else, and we were'nt in it for the winning. after the performance, we were all so high. like fuz said, the winning was the bonus. :)

yay. concert is in 3 days. so soon. argh. dont know if i want it to come or not. it's so fun, yet it's our last time at it. :( dont know if i want to leave or not. there's so much that i cant bear to leave behind, and still there's some stuff i cant wait to let go of. it seems that this year dance is so strange. we've such weird juniors. oh well.

&the joy.

11:25 PM

WE WON DRAMAFEST!!!

ooh yeah. se rocks. our gunny sacks turned best costumes, best actor reks, best directors and of course the PLAY OF THE YEAR! all our efforts were not for nothing.

so now we go back to school and turn into total muggers. till aces day. :) haha. oh wells. will write more tmr. i need to get some rest. lit symp tmr at 7.30am. which is quite crazy. :)

&the joy.

7:16 PM

anger, love, passion, hate

our bartenders-eduardo and tony

showgirls!!

suave and lola. acting like.. eh..

&the joy.

6:25 PM

the dramafest photos are superbly cool!! must go watch! i think it's only 50% sold.

the whole week spent staying back for dramafest. chinese o's yesterday. it was okay i guess. the examiners seemed nice enough. hope i do well. :)

concert is in one week! i cant wait, but yet, i dont want it do be over.. :(

&the joy.

6:39 PM

drowned myself in doritos and banana chips.

depressing and tiring day.

i think that i shouldnt think about unhappy things. then i become depressed. so yay. :) think happy. except that now there's a lot of sad things. so i cant be happy. boo.

let us recall. dance, jimmy's immigration thing, o level chinese, just about everything about school now...

dont think unhappy.

happy. :) i know. 2 things.

bb and...... (drumroll) VJ!!!!!

&the joy.

9:44 PM

yippeee. i didnt put it down but getting the dsa thing is more than meets the eye.

well, there were many "coincidences" for one.
-finding out about the auditions
-handing in my form one day before the auditions
-actually going for the auditions when no one called me.

and come on. everyone knows. my dancing cannot compare to joan's, lorr's and the rest's. i shouldnt have gotten it. i think.

on the day of the audition, on the bus ride home, i was feeling really nervous and all, cos the seniors told us they might call that very night. so i prayed the whole way back, praying that i would be able to accept the outcome, whatever it would be, be it rejection or acceptance. i told God that if i really did get in, it would be quite a miracle, so it would mean that he wanted my time. In the sense that without having so much stress, i would be able to use more of my time for ministry. yeah. so. seee??

yeah. my life is so cool. i can see God working in it every step of the way. :) YAY.

&the joy.