that being my destination.

20060530

2:44 PM

sick again. well, thank God it's after chinese o's.

vomitted 4 times this morning. yuck. yuck. and i cant ingest anything. now i know how chah must have felt last year when she was sick. and her's lasted 2 weeks. poor chah.

i got to miss physics lecture. not sure if that's a good thing though. missed hsien fa's and xujie's as well. i must try to get well by tmr. and hopefully i can get some food into my system. i dont want to end up fainting.

thanks mini, maria, monkey, nic, grace, dawn for standing up for me. but dont scare the poor girl too much k? :)

&the joy.

7:13 PM

chinese o's. haha. i feel so cheated. our mocks were so hard la. ok. so i hope to do well for this. :)

went to watch da vinci code with dawn and jiayun. i think we missed the first half an hour or so. the book was so much better. at least it was well written. the show was just well.. scary. :) haha. dawn was very scared. cos we didnt want to tell her what happened next. :) the chapter 55 stuff is so nonsensical, it's hilarious. really. you want to burst out laughing reading it.

missed dance today as a result of o's. i was so scared la. so glad it's over. thankyous to all those wonderful people who wished me all the best. :) love ya <3 when i was doing the paper, i kept thinking of emaths. so weird. it felt like sec 3 eoys or something. like i was going to have an emath paper after that.

need to do physics for tmr's lecture. i'll be in school till 4. sigh. holiday days are longer than normal days.

i was trying to do the dance blog. i think i need your help gracee. and i need some artist to help me with the concert tee. jan? fuzzeh? anyone? help me...

all those who havent done so yet, please go get your tickets for the concert now. :) i promise you wont regret. especially when monkey does her pas de deux in nevermore/ evermore. :) come come kay?

&the joy.

4:18 PM

friday's class was fun. we did floor barre then a teeny bit of barre. and that was it for class. which was really fun and felt quite like xujie. then i went for ping's class and we used the ivory studio. yay. i miss using that studio.

saturday dance. ms deans came back. we did jumping east again. it's fun, even after so many years. yay. i did somewhat a cartwheel. :) haha. it wasnt really one. biru's my partner for the kicking part. she's very funny. and she didnt want to do the cartwheel la. hsien fa was doing nevermore, so i discussed with the sitting down ppl (mini, jeanette, shanice, yue ru, eryn) the dance concert tee. i'd better start doing it. i did janice's part for starlight. but only cos i'm her understudy and no one else knows her part. somehow shanice and i always seem to be fighting for the same part. seem to only. cos i really dont mind her taking my place in starlight if i had one. but it's janice's and janice can do it really well. and i dont want janice to be deprived of her chance just because she's on the lit trip.

met erika and went to watch xmen 3. okay, granted, it wasnt that scary. but i get scared really easily. :) anyways i think that jean grey's face was really ugly whenever all the veins started popping out. haha. met the c4/pf- ers to go for unify. we went for dinner so we were a bit late. but the whole thing was really good.

today in church we celebrated the jan- now birthday ppl. the cake was quite nice. but i didnt dare to eat the orange berry thing. neither did joel. but colin just took it all in one bite. yuck. i think it would taste sour. it looks sour. :) my class only had ben, joel, mark and i. and ivy. sad. and it was raining heavily. sad-er. and tmr is cl o's. sad-est. :(

went for lunch and shopping with my family. i bought a dress. but i dont know when i will have the chance to wear it. haha.

&the joy.

11:41 PM

AHHhhh... looking back at my photos on the computer... i really love you guys!! jan, charis, josh, matt, nic, ben, kat, charmaine, everyone! i really dont know how i could live without you. yes, school is fun. i love sc. i wouldnt be anywhere else in the world. but sometimes, school just sucks. caught up with all the competition, grades, politics.. i really look forward to seeing you churchies. it's just that bond of love between all of us. it's invisible, yet is definitely felt. oh, thank you Lord for these people. yay!! tmr we'll meet again. i simply relish your company.

sigh. chinese o's now 2 days away. how? i also dunno.

dance-ity dance. probably one of the best things in my life. also one of the worst. probably because i suck at it. and yet i love it so much. i dont know if others feel alike but sometimes when i see people dance, especially you monkey dear, i feel all warm and fuzzy inside, or sometimes i may feel tears welling up in my eyes. i love the way simply tightening your leg makes it look so long and pretty. a simple port de bras can look so elegant. i love it for all it is. and yet. it's so demanding. so harsh. so unlike what it seems. you need the right body, the right emotions, the right genetic material really.

to the anonymous person who has been tagging my blog. thank you for your feedback. yes, i know that i suck. and i really didnt mean for shanice to be taken out of sylphides. and i thought she was going to do it on open house. but can you give me a chance? i know that a wrong move may spoil the whole piece, but i want to try. if you've been through what i have, you would know how heart wrenching it is to be deprived of chances you are entitled to. yes, and i will work hard. i now forgo my recess and practice in the dance studio everyday. i've increased the number of classes i attend each week. but how will i improve without attending hsien fa's? okay. there may be some excercises i really cant do, but at least i'm trying my best. just to let you know, i have nothing against you. and you dont really need to tell me who you are. and one last thing. shanice is so fortuanate to have a friend like you. :) thanks for being such a great friend to my junior, though i think you're one of my juniors too. :) love ya, junior.

sec 4 is so yucky. lessons, lectures, homework. that's our life.

&the joy.

5:17 PM

caught up in the flurry of dsa. pfft.

one thing though. when i went to the passport place to collect my passport, the guy at the counter was taking down my school and level. so...
guy: singapore chinese girls' school..
me: yep.
guy: sec 1 or sec 2?
(this is quite normal so i just smile and say..)
me: 4
guy: oh, primary 4?
me: ?!?!!?! pfft.

pfft shall be my new word.

5 days left till o's. pfft. :)

&the joy.

9:49 AM

fifth day of no school. it's like holiday. :)

yuck. lit makeup class. today. and ptd. i hope i get a good report. we'll get that paper with the ranking things. :(

&the joy.

9:20 PM

went for lunch with sunday school class ppl today. :) yay. we had nice pasta. i shared with kat. it was really nice whatever it was. and i was really full. cos aunty siew kheng and aunty jenny got food for us. :) yam cake and glutinous rice. yum yum.

no school tmr. ptd.

yay. lin wei just sent me the batam photos. thank you so much. :) last year march. looking at them brings back so many memories. just carved in one day. :) miss the kids there.

&the joy.

8:51 PM

20060520 (scgs open house)
zero-nine-hundred hours
outside sc dance lounge

dancers finishing decor on dance board. i sewed the skirts. :) yay. at least i found something i could do. i'm not very good at all the artsy stuff. heehee. getting ready for the opening of open house.

ten-hundred hours

ballet class starts. totally on pointe. i felt so useless. during the class i was standing in between biru and yong wei. couldnt do anything right. :( starlight was good. minyi made her fouttes. and ended with a double. the audience seemed to enjoy it. hsien fa wasnt too pleased though. ran nevermore once through.

eleven-thirty

toes felt crushed. me too. argh. i think i'm one of the if not the worst in the class. :( i wish i could just get it.

twelve-hundred hours

eating the char siew rice mrs chan got for us. yay. the dancers got proper food cos mrs chan is the only cca teacher who will bother with this kinda thing. :) mrs chan rocks at times like this. maria and mini bought a watermelon juice thingy from one of the stalls. it was huge. and had a lot of water. :)

twelve-thirty

went back. took my costume. changed and such. took many many pictures with janice's camera. i forgot i had mine in my bag. :( jiayun, mini and i panicking as a result of lack of practice of sylphides.

thirteen-hundred hours

we went on to perform. there were so many people. compared to the number who watched class. i think i did many wrong things. oh well. i will practice hard for the concert. yay. i did sylphides in the end. :)

fourteen-thirty hours

reported to the physics lab to mr tang. spent the rest of open house bragging about sc to the visitors, demonstrating equipment i wasnt sure of and playing with the keyboard and oscilloscope. oh wells. i think i did a good job of the explanation. to the best of my ability. i wasnt sure of some things. anyways a lot of them didnt look too interested.

seventeen-hundred hours

went for ballet at attitude. i decided i shall work my muscles hard since we werent doing anything too advanced. so we managed to learn one new excercise. i wonder if we'll ever finish the syllabus.

nineteen-hundred hours

by now i am drained. and... i am told that we are going out for dinner. argh. bleh. so we went to ikea and i was quite zombified. i think i slept well. cos i was so tired.

&the joy.

9:55 PM

i didnt go to school today. but i think i'm well. on the day that i'm so super sick i'm in school, and then when i stay at home i get well. sigh. i wish i was in school today. not that i didnt go at all. i went to watch dance and help out with the dance board.

yay. the dance board has cute little ballerinas and jazz dancers. and a traffic light and zebra crossing. must go and see ok? it's very nice. :)

i discovered so much about dancing today by just watching. i know. i always get "the privellege" of watching other ppl dance, but watching hsien fa's class was so different. whoa.. kelly has really nice long legs that give her a nice line. and dawn and ying give off this 'look at me!" sorta aura. jiayun and maria look somewhat like twins :) jiayun rocks man. she's so good. and minyi, she works so hard and is so good la. biru. haha. when biru dances, you can feel the energy exuded by her being. it's so powerful and strong in starlight, so passionate in nevermore. on tuesday she did the pas de deux so well. i didnt really see it today. but she's really good. yay. go monkey!!

tmr is open house. i know this is a bit late but if you are free tmr drop by sc and visit our open house. you'll enjoy it. i hope. :) i saw a nice huge poster near the hall on my way out of school just now and it looks ultra-cool. although i couldnt make out what it said. maybe it was too dark. or my eyes have problems.

&the joy.

6:33 PM

sick-est day. yuck. i think i failed my a math test. it was super hard and my nose was not helping. celebrated mrs wang's birthday for her. haha. she's so cute.

i was pacing up and down the aisle during chinese. to make myself feel better. then on the way home it was so terrible. i hope i get well soon. e math test tmr and i dont want to miss it. and dance. hsien fa is going to set the third movement of nevermore. :(

yay yay. cant wait for sunday. going out with my class+erika. yay. :)

&the joy.

10:23 PM

ar. bad sick day. i got even more sick-er. and mummy got vertigo last night. so i had to go to school by myself. the whole day i was stealing cheryl's tissues from under her desk, trying to stop what seemed like an open faucet. sick. and my right eye keeps tearing, my left one is so dry. :( forgot about a math test. need to study.

because of the drilling upstairs (i dont know why the neighbours keep renovating. one of these days the roof will cave in as a result of extensive drilling), our power supply got cut off. and we had to call the electricians and all. but now only the electric socket things work. the ones which supply current directly to the lights will short circuit if turned on. maybe i'll ask mr tang why. hmm..

oh tuition-ing is fun. yay. huihui, simin, ben and i were all there together again. oh happy day. :) we spent the whole lesson discussing the essay title. and romeo and juliet. :) ooh and when i was walking downstairs i saw hansen. he said hi so i said hi too. :) he should be tuition-ing with us. will help him to relieve stress. dont need to work so hard. aunty thelma says joel writes very well. yay i want to read his essays. :)

oh and rj lost to sa in the rugby finals. matt didnt seem very excited. sheng chuan was talking about the ac-sa match. haha. like i understand any of it.

today is the day that they will be discussing. :) so exciting. i hope they make a decision quick. i can't wait. :)

&the joy.

8:40 PM

sick today. and of all days, the upstairs people decide to start drilling all over today. so my room was viabrating and i had to go hide in the kitchen to make sure i wouldnt get driven insane by the noise. and so i decided to go for dance.

i was taken out of sylphides. :( :( :( what did i do to deserve that? argh. so frustrated. and sad. i really really want to do that item. and it's my last year. aahhhh...... bleh.

nevermore is erm... okay i guess. the pas de deux is so cool. yay. go biru. it's so passionate and sad. sorta. cool-ness.

must think happy thoughts. i hope the older ones and the rest will let us combine with befc for youth sunday. yay. then it'll be so fun. and our favourite. bonding! :) yay. and the unify think sounds really cool as well. i hope i'm allowed to go. hopefully my parents wont realise it's 2 days before chinese o's :). think happy. tmr all the tuition-ers will be back. i hope benjy buys shut-up sweets for us. :) miss huihui and simin. but yay. i'll see them tmr. i cut out a red and a green man for the dance board. it's going to be so nice. for open house. ohno. now i am reminded that i wont be performing. oh no. i hope she cant fit into my costume. nono. cannot be so mean. sorry shanice dear. i dont want to cause you to lose your place twice. :( argh. why cant life be so much less complicated.

i saw many pictures of our last year's sec4 farewell today. really sad that people come and people go. why can't things stay the same? well i guess change is sometimes good, like i would certainly like to become a much better dancer, but yet, there are so many things i cant bear to leave behind. last year at Bible trail, we learnt about cutting off ties. whenever i think of all these things i cant bear to let go of, i am reminded of a picture of someone whose legs are chained to those big black ball weight things. i cant let anything weigh me down. i have to look at my final destination. perhaps God just wants be to have a harder life cos i need more refining. oh well. i mustn't blame anyone.

&the joy.

9:24 PM

i cant believe i almost forgot

WE GOT INTO THE DRAMAFEST FINALS!!!
ooh yeah. SE so rocked dramafest.

finals on 7 july, one week before dance concert. yay.

&the joy.

4:36 PM

the cute frisbee pics. the rest can be found here.

harry reaches for the frisbee..

super-yujin!!

1,2,3,4,5,6!!

am i skipping? note matt on the right

why am i still skipping? note now it's mark :)

err...

let us lift our hands up high and look worried?

&the joy.

10:34 PM

had sunday school again after so many weeks. studied with the church ppl at harbourfront macs. did a bit of maths.

we talk so much, yet we do so little
i really want to start a revival in my generation.
is only praying enough?
i agree that it is very very important, but are we being too passive?
i want to be equipped to become a soldier for God.
i want to be used as an instument of God.
shall we start now?

&the joy.

9:02 PM

finally home.

thursday there was dramafest. i think we did very well. yay. hopefully we'll get in. cross your fingers. :)

just came back from camp. it's a grow fat camp. we just eat and eat and eat and never run about much. :) it was called 2 tell u the truth... it was basically about youth evangelism. the sessions and discussions led me to realise many new truths and made me really feel the need for evangelism. particularly today, when we split into our different ministries. i'm in the jcm, even though i'm still sec 4. but hearing about how they share the gospel and form prayer groups and all is really interesting and encouraging. it's very exciting to hear about how the students of the different jcs try to reach out to their friends and encourage each other along in their faith. but it's still quite scary working with the older people. it seems so different from sec sch ministry.

we did street e and for the first time i did it by myself without faltering. yay. except at the end geraldine had to help me out a bit. :) i've met so many new people over the course of the past 3 days, personnel and students from different areas. at first it was quite frightening, i only knew wei qiang and jolene. but as the time went by i got to know the others better and it became less and less intimidating.

God's word really needs to be shared to everyone. it's our responsibility as christians to do the work of evangelism. and we shouldnt wait. now i feel all geared up to sharing to others. i pray that this fire will continue to burn within me and the hearts of the other campers, that we will never lose the passion to share the gospel of Christ to the world.

&the joy.

5:47 PM

yesterday blogger didnt want to let me post.

no school today!! :)

xujie dance from 9-12.30. and we were supposed to end at 11.30. so we were late for dramafest practice. oh well. i just found out why nic was panicking. only 4 classes will get to the next round. which is dramafest nite. OH. that's why. AHH! *panic as well..

i was late for dance. oops. only missed the first 2 stretches. xujie stretched each one of us one by one. i like being stretched. it makes me feel flexible. even though i'm not really. and it hurts. we did the chinese item. only about 30 more seconds. sigh. i wonder if we're ever going to finish it. i did a bridge from a standing up position today. YAY!! so happy. janice smashed her hairband into her head when she collapsed from her bridge. her head has holes in the shape of the teeth of the hairband. ouch.

my right instep hurts. i think i put too much weight on it for too long. it's very sore. i think i have an increasing tolerance against chilli. yay. cos i managed to eat the curry fish for lunch today. :)

i've got the booking form for sc dance concert already. so if you want tix please tell me cos priority booking ends this monday. yes. it's this monday. so you have less than a week. please go! you'll get to see me! yay. haha :) details are in a previous post. (20060421)

&the joy.

6:06 PM

tired. 2 periods of basketball today. i resent playing ball games. for one, i cant catch the ball. :) but it wasnt that bad today. i guess cos i was with the team 5&6 ppl (not so high ability teams :))
haha. the class tee is really thick and heat absorbing. i was so wet and sticky. yuck. luckily i was at the covered court. poor ppl who were up ontop at the open courts.

had a talk on hcjc after school today. after all that persuading on the part of the teacher, i've decided i don t want to go there. :) haha. it's quite intimidating, the amount of awards they win and stuff. anyways, i dont want to become researcher or an mp. and hc's modern/western/whatever-they-call-it dance is um.. not that good? some ppl dont even know that it exists. haha.

yay. i cant wait for church camp. hope that josh can come too. go beg your teacher josh. it wont be the same without you :( . haha.

i forgot to do heymath. argh. now i just got myself 0/25 for the math assignment.

&the joy.

9:37 PM

oh wow matt is really good at arty stuff. haha. the box he gave to jan was sooo sweet!! ahh.... i didnt know he was so good at this type of thing. haha. matt, make sure you remember what i told you. :)

went for lunch with kat, nic, josh, matt and mark. jan had to study for test. and ben was mugging for mid-yrs. aw. you can join us next time dearie. :) poor thing had to study ss. :( haha. the guys kinda ate alot. we walked alot as well. all around the place. and i bought jy's birthday present. hope you like it girl! :) poor charis had to study too. when we were supposed to bring her out for birthday lunch. :( so sad.

had dramafest practice again. yesterday ama taught us a routine to do. it really matches the copacabana music and it's so nice. yay. i like it. :) the hostel dining hall is really quite homey. but of course not as good as a real home. :) yay. we are so going to get in the next round of dramafest. nic and fuzzeh, no worries k?

it's really amazing how God can provide for us. this thurs, i was supposed to catch the 3.30pm coach to kl after school. unfortunately, dramafest was rescheduled and it's now on thursday. our class is on at 3.20pm, just 10 min before the bus leaves. obviously this means that i cant make the bus. so blah blah blah, there's this huge problem and no one knows of a feasible solution. so, we commit the whole thing to the Lord and wait for his answer.

next day, mum goes to bus company and finds out that there is no more space on the 6.45pm bus. this is the next closest to the 3.30 one. she was going to go to other bus companies to find out about their vacancies when... daddy opens the newspaper and see an article about buses being robbed along malaysian highways at night. so there goes my trip to kl.

oh well. i guess the Lord has his plans for me and i'm probably not to go this time round. not going also gives me the opportunity to go for yfc camp. i think the Lord really has something to teach me then so i'm going with an open heart to learn whatever he has for me there.

today kat found out something really cool but pretty frightening as well. matt, josh and nic bear a striking resemblence to joel, shannon and harry. for one, it's a trio. :) haha
-joel+matthew- typical jock, good looks blah blah.... vj soccer player/sa rugger
-shannon+josh- sensitive :) always afraid of getting fat, vain
-harry+nic- food gurus!!! :)
hahaha. so similar, it's scary.

&the joy.

7:55 PM

i'm so fat. oh dear. i look so fat in min yi's costume. :(

hsien fa's back next week! *drumroll... haha. oh dear. i think i might not survive. i've not really been doing much ballet these few weeks. and we are going to have to do the funny rolling thing for nevermore again. ouch.

yay. i'm in sylphides, jumping, concerto allegro and the chinese one. i think that's all. and starlight and nevermore second cast. i hope concert this year will be fun. it's taking quite long to get the items set though. ahh.. need to work faster. i need to be more patient. but i cant stand it if things are done slowly. sigh.

dramafest has been changed to thursday. so now i have a big problem. why do i keep causing so many problems? :( the same as last time. grace says i always find out so many problems during chinese. haha. maybe it's because i fill in my organiser during chinese. i realise we dont do much during chinese anymore. oh well.

mrs phuah is retiring. our vice-principal. on the 30th of june or something like that. we're supposed to do something. i think mrs chan is getting shanice, biru, yueyun and eryn to do quadrille. ooh. i like quadrille. :)

no dance tmr. i seriously need to start dancing more. i must do my crunches and stretches everyday. and practice turning.

&the joy.

10:14 PM

WHOOPPEEE!!! YAY!! HOORAY!!

nanee-nanee-poo-poo!
the dance blog is back!

i'm so high!! go visit. and tag. scdance.blogspot.com

<3 AHhhh! LOVE SCDANCE!!! i dont wanna leave!!!

&the joy.

6:50 PM

yay. i did it. haha. i managed to find out where to type what into the script thing. yay.

went to spotlight after school with nic and cam today. i'm going to be fat. i ate at long john silvers for the second time this week. sigh. the milo is really good. yummy yummy. :) bought cloth for the showgirl's microskirts. the class fund now owes me $10. :) i really hope we get in the next round for dramafest. cos we're good. need to start on the dance though. 4 more days. luckily saturday is polling day. so everyone is free. *thank you pap! :) i think we'll be going down to barker. just like for class cheer.

arrgh. i did so badly for bio and emath. and english!! *pouts :( yuck. chinese o's in 3 weeks. happy today becase i got a b for the cl mocks. yay. a little slit of light suddenly appears at the end of the tunnel. :)

dance day tmr! yay. i hope we can dance a lot so that i wont feel guilty eating ice cream. haha. burn those calories. :)

&the joy.

5:53 PM

went to hdb hub yesterday. it wasnt that boring lah. we watched a corporate video of the hdb, which was quite propaganda-ish, followed by a tour of the gallery. the funnest part is when you go into this circular lift. the doors close and the lift makes noise and the lights move such that you think the lift is moving upstairs. unfortunately you dont feel the inertia it isnt that realistic. haha. there is this little tv inside and then when the doors open you are in the home of the future. which is super cool. with all those buttons to press and cards to scan. :) i like to press buttons. then we went back to draw our ideal flat. my group's was more like a whole new earth altogether. it's really nice. i'm going to try to scan it into the computer to salvage it. it's a biodome with a simulated outside and simulated beach and all. haha. and there is also a dungeon, for those who do not obey us, the creators. it's a really fun world to live in.

but it was seriously tiring. after i showered i slept at 7. wow. i cant believe it. i never have enough time and yet i slept so early. it was at the expense of my geog tys though. i had to rush it out during contact time and chinese.

we had a talk on parenting during ce today. mrs choo is such a wonderful mother. oh so sweet. though poor thing, her son seems so have a lot of problems like asthma and ezyma.

dramafest prac after school. i didnt have much to practise. my sole line is yes! which actually doesnt really qualify as a line. :) so yvonne and i were practising seductive moves which were grossing nic out. haha. we didnt have the music so we couldnt choreograph anything. then we were playing with the sythesizer and suddenly .. came through the door and said we were making a 'ruckus'. oops. then on the way out .. told us it was a joke. yes. funny. then there was so much tension in the room cos of .. and it was worse than telling ghost stories. everyone (fuz, yvonne, reks, roxanne and i) were huddled around ourselves of a table or chair leg. haha. then at the highest point of tension, the door flew open. *screams AHHHhhh!! it was opy. .... er... haha? yay. dramafest prac is so fun. i need to buy material to make our skirts. short micro skirts.

i love sc. i dont wanna leave. :(

&the joy.

6:50 PM

had dramafest meeting at nics house. whoa. her house is huge. :)

then went for yfc davinci code seminar. at st andrews cathedral. the new sanctuary is really nice. it's like an auditorium cos its tiered, not level. the talk was really good. the lecturer wasnt boring, in fact he was really engaging. except that i was freezing, it was overall fun. :)

watched the pacifier dvd with mum and kat. i like the last part when he does the dance. it's really funny. and touching. :) i should go and study though.

&the joy.